Rant. 01/18/12
This mood im in. i’m really getting tired of it.
There isnt a day that i dont stop and think about the things that are wrong with me. Theyre mostly superficial things (my weight, my teeth, my skin)
And then on top of that I’m starting to fall for someone.. but im not sure if its a good idea to fall for this person.. I havent even met him yet.. and every time we plan to meet, something goes wrong. i almost feel like he dosent want to hang out.. like because im too young or not sufficient enough. idk. my insecurities are out of fucking control. i cant even have someone look at me without assuming theyre judging me..
i dont need self assurance.. i need some fucking self worth.
this rut fucking sucks.
